I keep coming back to hatred, not only because there seems to be so much of it around right now – not simmering just under the surface like it has most of my life; no now it’s raised it’s ugly, misshapen, and rotting head out of the dirt and slime where it was born. Out in the open, as my dad used to say, so “any fool can plainly see, and you can see it plainly.”
I get it. Anger is easy. That’s where it starts. Anger and fear and maybe a slight sense of being overwhelmed. It’s just a slight skip and a jump from there to the edges of remorseless dislike. There on the outskirts of reason and decency, where the wolves your society insists it isn’t still feeding are hungrily waiting for you, is where hatred is bred, birthed, suckled, weaned, toilet-trained, and otherwise educated.
No one is actually born afraid. That’s learned behavior, some of it instinctually triggered and the rest of it institutionally indoctrinated as you reach out to understand yourself, your world, and your place in it.
Once you learn fear, that single path that’s been right under your feet your whole life up to that point splits, or poetically, diverges into two roads at the edge of a yellow wood. Dualism in full effect. Us sees them. Inside wants outside. Light fights darkness. Death haunts life. What was once a flowing piece of ballet is now a tortured two-step, a lock-step. That mechanical march becomes martial. Lines are drawn to be crossed. Insults are hurled as a precursor to more material objects. It escalates because that’s what a well-lit stairway to paradise does. It leads the faithful to the hereafter.
But hatred cannot win. Because from hatred nothing can grow. It has no life without your energy. Without your legs it cannot stand.
It doesn’t matter who or what you hate. You’re automatically not the good guy or girl. And I don’t mean good in the sense of proper, respectable, well behaved, appropriate, or genteel. No, I mean good as in being a decent, honest, compassionate, and worthwhile human being. If you pick up the armor of hatred, regardless of the evil of your enemy, you must leave your humanity in your locker with your street clothes. And you won’t be going home after your shift. That’s a life choice, isn’t it?
Is it worth it?
11 APR 2025
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